The Hip After Five Weeks
Five weeks ago, I had hip replacement surgery. No longer do I feel the head of my femur grinding into my hip socket but I am only about 75% recovered at this point. The hip still aches and I have to be very careful how I move. Move the wrong way and a jolt of pain runs through my leg. By the time I returned home I was capable of going up the stairs, slowly, and while going up and down them is easier now, there are still times when it's hard work. After being seated for a long period of time it still takes a few seconds to get going but as the implant and bone grow together and time passes, this will become less noticeable.
I can't imagine how many people there are in the world who are walking around with hip problems because they are without the resources to have the surgery done. Or they're too scared to have it done. The surgery has taken up quite a bit of energy and set me back financially, but I am grateful I had the surgery done and even more grateful I woke up from anesthesia. But I am now a low point both physically and mentally.
In the beginning, my post-surgery progress was far better than I expected and far better than the norm. Twelve hours after surgery I was up and walking with the help of a walker. The following day I was walking unassisted. However, I have now plateaued and my improvement has slowed. This irritates and at times, frustrates me too.
Perhaps I want too much, too soon. All I can do is try to remember to stay positive. Every day is a day in which I am healing. Before, I had a hard time walking, now walking is less painful. Before, I was unable to lie on my right side, now I can do so. A few weeks ago, I had to use my arms to pull myself up the stairs, this is no longer necessary. Also, the range of motion in my hip has improved.
Right now I'm chomping at the bit though and I'm eager to be 100% again. Hopefully in another month or so I will be. Or at least I'll be closer to 100%.
BTW - for those with hip and knee problems, go see Dr. Chanakarn at Rajavej Hospital in Chiang Mai. His phone number is: +66.53.801.999.
YouTube / Members Site
When I first started making videos on YouTube, I wanted to do something different, helping people in the process, and possibly earning a little extra cash. I've done this. Then I wanted to bring it to the next level, which for me meant garnering more subscribers. I've done this, although I would prefer having 100K subscribers instead of 7400. Even by my relatively low standards of film making, I've made some interesting clips from around Southeast Asia, answered thousands of questions, and made a little money. But just like with my hip, I want more - what I've done is never good enough. Maybe this is what keeps driving me.
Once in a while I still get excited about a small project but to be honest, YouTube has been a grind for the past few months. No longer is at as fun as it used to be. Perhaps I've done too many videos, too quickly, concentrating on quantity instead of quality. Coming up with ideas has become more difficult. Sure, I get a little help from the letters I receive, but believe me, the majority of questions and ideas I receive have either been done already, are too costly or are not worth spending much time on. Maybe I'm just too picky but I don't think so.
Thailand has went from exotic to blasé. There are those who think Thailand is a wild, crazy place. Thailand is tame to me. Cambodia and Myanmar are tame. Thus when a guy like me - a little nutso and always needing to do something - is on the shelf for a couple of years, the desire to go somewhere beyond a little dangerous becomes a bit of an obsession. I admit it, I like going places and doing things that give me a buzz. Without this buzz, I feel something is missing and I quickly grow bored.
Every once in a while someone will write me or walk up to me on the street or at Starbucks and tell me that they like or appreciate my videos. This is always nice. Not because of being recognized but for being appreciated. Or because what I've done is appreciated. Perhaps this is why I love photography. I don't have to talk. The photos talk for me and people appreciate a good photo.
YouTube has taught me a lot about people, human nature, and about myself. There are people who are happy and friendly and a small percentage who are haters. This is life. A smorgasbord of personalities and attitudes. One reason I am grateful for those willing to pay for membership to my site or who contribute is it adds value to what I am doing. Money means something to me and contrary to what some may think, I'm not here to hear myself talk. I try to provide something of value and in return, get compensated. Seems fair to me. I would prefer to put up one video per week on my website and only an occasional video on YouTube.
Several times I've stated if the dough I earn from YouTube doesn't improve to my satisfaction, it makes more sense for me to do what I like - take photos. I can still have a blog and websites and without putting up two or three videos per week on YouTube, my schedule is seriously lightened. I can earn as much or more doing what I like with far less agita. A video now and then is all it takes to continue promoting my websites and earning from YouTube so...what's the point? To help people? I enjoy helping people but I think I can do a better job of this concentrating on photo projects AND more than likely I'll earn more money in the end. Less YouTube videos, more member's videos and podcasts, and more photos. This the direction I'm heading.
Members...thank you very much for your support.
What Would You Like to See More Of and Less Of?
Every so often I feel the need to ask this question. I'm doing so now. What would my loyal followers like to see more of, less of, and what do you like that I've done so far? Please let me know. The person who sends in the best answer will receive a free Muay Thai t-shirt. (*Counting responses through May 20.). Thanks.